this week was......disgusting......

Firstly, time passes irregularly now. I have no idea what the day is, what the week is, what the time is, almost constantly. I even forget that it's not 2014 sometimes now.

Also, the skin meds I'm taking right now gave me two GIANT cold sores. Not one, but TWO.

I went to a fucking comedy club on a wednesday night to see the guy i've liked since this time LAST YEAR to do stand up. I was all by myself sitting in the back of this cold room with some senior citizens and early 30 year olds there to support their friends. The only other person I knew in the audience was the guy's mom, and she was far away.

So he did his set and then I went outside and congratulated him and then asked him if he was going to stay for the rest of the show, and he was like yeah, I'll see you in there, so I was like cool, and I went back inside.

But he didn't come back inside. I also didn't have my phone on me so there was nothing to do. And I've come to the conclusion that I don't enjoy standup comedy, especially not when I am sitting in the back of a cold room waiting for someone to come and be with me. And I will never seek it out again.

I saw him again after the show and he was totally rude and at this point I had the cold sores under control so that was not the problem and I left the comedy club feeling totally fucking stupid for wasting two hours of my life and good eyeliner.

It is crunch time at track. I have to get up at fucxking 5 am for a meet and because i have a lot of stuff to do at night I'm tired all the time now. I fell asleep on the bus. I close my eyes for long periods of time in class when the teacher can't see me.

Then friday was the worst but also the best. I took this math test and oh my god... I might have felt stupid after the comedy club but I have never in my live felt this academically challenged. I couldn't even finish the test because I was shaking and crying so hard. I want to cry just writing about it. I skipped 3 questions worth 10 points so the best grade I can possibly get is a C. I hate math i hate it I hat eit i hate it.

The good part was going over to my friends house after school. We do so much weird stuff. I should really write about that more often. we saw the new blake lively movie and i will definetly do a post on that later because I';ve seen so many movies this month so a master post is in store...

God I jjust want to keep it togrether these last weeks of school. I am going to bed.

Things to come:
- Layout update
- Disney post
- Movie list and reviews 

Photos Late October - Early January

Hey I just downloaded so many photos here they all are!

Halloween

Alyssa and Issy as Suzy and Sam from Moonrise Kingdom

Emily and Ella as Hugh Heffner and a Playboy Bunny

Sophia and Mimi as the girls from Ghost World

Lucinda as DJ Tanner from Full House 

School

That post 6th period low

Audrey being spied on by Mary

Drawing in Issy's sketchbook, she said she was thinking of me. I like it very much  

Film Class

Script reading

Filming

Editing 

Winter Formal 

Audrey, Blair, Clara, Me, Evan

The Bathroom with Very Nice Lighting 

For Evan's date

Melissa, Me, and Camille :)))

Having a very fun time in the Uber listening to Kanye

Feeling fancy

Down Town/Little Tokyo

Hello Kitty

HK telephones

Dropping a selfie in my mom jeans 

Rotating mirror, also very Good for Selfies 

Most Holy Grocery Store

New Years/ Christmas Concert 

Pasadena, "alien abduction" lighting 

My look for the school concert, skirt was a bday present

Griffith Observatory

Exploring a bit

Audrey and I after the long hike, I was not dressed properly

About to watch the show in the planetarium 

Checking out the view

Very nice pic taken by Audrey with my zoom

Hope to post more photos soon! 

Love maisie xoxox

School, Crying

Was trying to find a photo to go along with this blog post but I just couldn't find anything good enough. I do want to post photos though. Eventually. I got my report card, not my best but not bad. All A's and B's. My friend Kendra switched from Photography to Yoga and now I am all alone and so sad. I took a nap for half of the class and no one noticed. (I finished my project and we had a sub).

This girl in my section(homeroom) got a detention for wearing the wrong uniform and she started crying. At first it was just a couple tears but then she was sobbing, loudly. It made our teacher very uncomfortable. He was just like "....Uh.... are you going to be okay...."

I cry in front of people a lot so I really felt for her. I don't get embarrassed publicly crying and I can't tell if that is a strength or a weakness. She said that she was having a really bad day and that this was just the icing on the cake.

And just on a side note, I don't think that men should be allowed to teach at an all girls school, ever. :-)

I am going to watch as much Queer as Folk as possible.  Goodnight. xxx

I just realized I never made a blog post about the weirdest night of my life aka the time I met my celebrity crush and saw 2 dead bodies

This happened such a long time ago and I never made a post about it! Oh my god, this has to be one of my most favorite memories ever.

It had to be about 7 months ago at least. Way back when I was realllly obsessed with supernatural, but starting to loose interest. I really liked this actor, Osric Chau. He's 29 but mostly plays highschoolers. Me and Clara were starting to get into witchy stuff and we did a love spell, she did it on the boy she liked, and I did it on Osric Chau. We were both like, nahh, there is no way this is gonna work.

A week later I'm on facebook and there's a post from Osric Chau's page saying that he's going to this really small show in burbank to support his friend's band, and he would love if more people came. I FREAKED OUT and called clara and I was so happy because never in a million years did I think I was going to meet this guy! I don't my parents and I instantly came down from such a high to a very low low low because they told me they had signed me up to be the photographer at their friend's benefit and I was like NOOOOO I hate taking photos noooooooooo no and I cried and cried and cried until they agreed to let me go to the show as long as I went to the first part of the benefit.

Clara's brother picked me up in this fucking car that only had 2 SEATS so I had to sit on Clara's lap as we were driving like a million miles an hour and I was freaking out and her brother just kept saying "Can you please try to look like 1 person". I really thought I was going to die. But I didn't and we made it to the show!

It was at this suuuuuper weird/cool place. There were chinese lanterns and the inside was kinda like a maze with all of these different aestetics mashed together. It was kinda like spiritual-indie meets scary carnival meets the late 80's. Veerry cool. The opening set was pretty good. We went out to this little garden place that was part of the venue and I saw the guy!! THE guy!! Osric Chau! I was like Oh! MY! GOD! But I didn't approach him then, I waited until it was about to be the next set and he was buying ppl drinks. He offered to buy everyone a cocktail and that's when it became apparent to me that maybe, hey, 15 year olds aren't supposed to be in this establishment because it's 21 and older and it was a total miracle that we were not carded. Like FOR REAL A MIRACLE.

I got a water and introduced myself and it totally was like I had left my body and floated to heaven because I was really, in love with this guy. Really. Like big ol' celebrity crush IN LOVE. And I totally stayed cool and confident when I introduced myself. I'm really proud.

So the band was pretty good. I can't remember what it was called but the main guy was dressed up like a tiger and there was an old hippie woman and they invited their lawyer to play a set and it was just a cool group of people. We went outside to talk to this girl we met who was from sweden but came to LA to act and I started talking to the owner  who was wearing this shirt that had the denny's logo but instead of saying denny's it said dahmers' and I was like wooooahhhhh is that for jefffery dahmer and he was like yeah! I directed and started in a movie about him!

We talked about Jefferey Dahmer for like 8 years and he told me that he actually went to the real apartment and but his head up against the door and he could feel things. SO creepy. Then he was telling me about how he used to be a mortician and actually lived above the mourge and oh, just by the way, he has 2 preserved bodies here, would we like to see them.

WELL GUESS WHAT I SAW 2 DEAD BODIES IN ONE NIGHT. The first one, was just like, a skeleton. Very small, no big deal. BUT THE SECOND ONE WAS A VERY VERY WELL PRESERVED DEAD CLOWN WHICH IS ABOUT AT CREEPY AS IT GETS. It was such a weird experience. I felt very cold inside but also very alive. I hope that doesn't sound cheesy when I read it back.

There were also a lot of very creepy very cool things at this place. Like a preserved two headed baby and a haunted painting and a shrine that you could make a wish on with a personal item that would come true. I didn't have a personal item though, so I didn't make a wish :'-( And I was leaving the wise hippie woman was smoking a ciggarette and asked me if she could stroke my hair. It was very nice. Oh, I got a picture with Osric Chau but I looked totally gross in it. I was really glad I got to meet him because after that I got over my celebrity crush. I got over supernatural too, which is REALLy for the best.

That was a very long read but oh my gosh. I am never going to forget the time I snuck into a 21+ venue saw my celebrity crush 2 dead bodies talked about Jeffrey Dhamer and got my hair stroked by a hippie woman. My favorite night. 

I had 4 consecutive orgasms and I wrote a short story

Okay so I might delete this post later but I just HAD to say that like- it was so intense my eyes were welled up with tears afterwards. Is this TMI? Probably. The time before finals is always wild.

This was the MOST INSANE week of my life. I mean like school was totally stressing me out, and it was probably the worst (mon-fri) week of my life.

But this weekend I wrote a 3,800 short story I'm not even finished with and I also saw Josh from Drake and Josh walking down the street and IDK...I feel closer to a higher power now than ever.

I don't even know how I did it. I had never even had 2 consecutive before but...wowowowoowowwwWOWW WOW!!!! W O W 

I fucked up part 4: "The sequel"

Whoo hoo part four! This will be short-
One of Clark's friends messaged me on facebook saying something like

"Hey, this is weird because we've never met before, but I'm a friend of Clark's. He used to talk about you a lot, but he just told me to never mention you again. So I was wondering- What the heck did he do?"

I explained the situation and how I felt really, really violated etc, etc, etc....and he said he would talk to Clark and see if he could get anymore info out of him. And Clark just told him the same think he told me, that it was supposed to be just a prank on Maddie and that he put my name in by accident. Only I KNOW that's not what happened because he was doing it to BOTH Maddie and I. How could he have accidentally believed he was pranking one person while accidentally leaking the personal info of another? What a freak.

Whatever. There is no way I am ever talking to that creep again. 

I fucked up part 3: The finale

Didn't think this post would get a part 3!!?!!? You were wronG!

Only this time IT WASNT ME WHO FUCKED UP!!!

Last night I got a weird call, and I thought it was this weird french guy who calls me sometimes. But I started getting multiple calls from different numbers and weird texts and it was strange. I answered the phone and some guy said my name is a really breathy voice and I hung up. I just put my phone on silent and left it in the other room.

Then I got a text saying "Hey there, you probably know this by now but some moron put all your private information up online. Sorry :-/"

I texted back and I was like "Hi, I'm really scared, can you please tell me who posted my stuff and where?"

They sent me a link to a fucking 4chan thread. I didn't even know people still use 4chan. The thread was really long and it started with a screen cap of a conversation that me and Clark were having.

Basically it was people responding to the thread of what Clark should say to me and this other girl named Maddie he was texting at the same time. Most of the responses were sexual, which I didn't catch on when he was sending them to me because I just thought he was joking around. The advice people were giving him was like

"Let her text you first. Don't reply without waiting first. Manipulate the hell out of her. You're in charge."

There were more screenshots of our conversations, some photos, and I started to feel so, so, so, stupid for trusting this guy. But how was I supposed to know>???

At one point someone pointed out that Clark was "Too much of a f*ggot to censor the girl's numbers" so then post of the responses changed to "Calling girls and telling them OP is a f*ggot".

I texted Clark and was like "Um...strange question...did you post my personal information online?"

And he was like "Yeah but I'm so so so sorry I was trying to play a prank on my friends Maddie and your names are similar sorry"

SMH that is the weakest defense ever!! What the hell cuzz, you think i'm buyin that shit?

I got more phone calls, maybe 15 or 20, from these disgusting 4chan MRA dude bros and stupidly enough Clark kept adding on to the thread. His last post was "Thanks for all the attention f*ggots, I finally got one of my threads to the top of 4chan." Then he texted me, "I feel really shitty." So I said "Please loose my number. Have a nice life."

Okay I was tired at the time and I realize that it's lose, not loose, but I'm sure he got my point. He took the thread down- i checked this morning.

Bad news: I feel completely violated and I just want to go and hide in a cave

Good news: I totally don't care about boys anymore! Why should I? They're gross and I hate them! I don't care about Jack, I don't care about Clark. I'm never giving my phone number away again!!!! THE ENDD!!!!