I fucked up part. 2

So I...deleted "Jack"'s number and I really think that's for the best. This way if he ever wants to talk to me he can but I won't be texting him (just cuz I can) and then not get a response. Then I deactivaed my facebook which was totally innevitable even withought the recent events just because it was becomeing really distracting. And it was going to drive me crazy just like having those awkward messages I sent just laying out  :(((((((((( ew I am disgusted with myself

I really hope things work out with Clark. I really do like him and I very much regret not kissing him. So I texted him that and he said, 'It's okay, there's always next time :)" which makes me hopeful. I hope Jack doesn't do anything like go up to him and say "Oh, maisie told me that you told her what I said" but i don't think that's going to happen.

But while I'm writing stuff out I'd just like to say I am really bummed because my Sims game glitched out and wouldn't let me play any of my towns so I had to delete all my families, and one of them I had spent nearly 3 months working on, it was on like the 3rd generation and I had designed my entire house and spent a really long time on it. I really miss my stupid sims and I don't feel like making new ones (But I probably will, eventually). 

I FUCKED uP!!!!!!

Okay heere is my boy problem!!!

I liked this boy!! Let's say his name was....ugh what's a boy name.....Jack!!! I don't like that name. Whatever!

Jack was funny and we had similar opinions and he texted me everyday which I liked a lot!!!!!!! We went out 3 times, it was totally platonic, and then things got a little akward towards the last time so he stopped texting me at all and our conversations were very short everytime I texted him and I was so so so so sad!!!!!!!!!!!!! What did I do wrong?!??!?!?!?!???/ I didn't know! but I got over it!!!!

Then I started talking to another guy...named.....Clark. Oh god that name is even worse. Okay so I met Clark on tinder and he was really nice and we went to the movies today! And it just so happened that he and Jack go to the same stupid school! And it's a small school so everyone knows eachother! So Clark asked Jack about me and this is what he said

"Maisie....yeah...I had a thing for her a while ago but not anymore. She takes bad photos but she's hot in real life." 

UGH GIJ????

I said to clark "No way"
and he was like "yeah"
and I was like "Seriously?"
And he was like "Yeah"
and I was like "No way."

I wasn't really mad about the photo thing, even though a month earlier Jack had said I take really good photos. I was just mad that he HAD liked me and I HAD liked him back and nothing ever happened and GOD DARN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why!>!>

Well anyways the rest of the date was good and he showed me his car and we laid in the back seat for a bit and then my mom came to pick me up and he tried to kiss me but i got nervious andn ii iiii hugged him instead and nnnn ooo hgod

OH GOD! HWHAT IS THE HECK WRONG WITH ME????? WHY CANT I EVER TELL WBEN THIGNS ARE HAPPENING WHY CANT I JUST BE SMOOTH THTHTHTTH IT$HI$@IIO++++++++__ IT was not  A good day for MAISIe!!!!!!!!!

AND THEN I MADE IT WORSE CUZ I MESSAGED JACK ON FACEBOOK AND ASKED HIM ABOUT IT WHY OH WHY

Me: Jack!!!
Me: !!!!!!!!
Me: Clark told me what you said!!!
Me: Don't get mad at him though!!!!!!
Jack: Wait
Jack: That I said what
Me: That you liked me briefly???
Jack: Oh, well I said that we hung out a lot if that's what he meant
Me: Oh okay! That makes sense!
Jack: Haha how are you?
Me: I'm really good, how about you?
Jack: I'm great
Me: That's really good! How's standup?
Jack: (No response)


WELL THAT WAS MY FUCKING DAY GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sum thoughts

i tried liquid eyeliner for the first time yesrterday- i can tell it will change my life

i want to go through all 501 of my tinder matches but wow that would take a long time and i don't really want to talk to slimyyyyy tinder boysss

greys anatomy is so good

i have no plans this weekend besides getting my dirvers permitt

tthhteeee end

Ouija Drama

So....Me and Clara did Ouija. We used this board that her Very Scary friend Valentine made for her sister's satanist dinner party. I played some RihRih because I was already FREAKED before we started.

We had a white Jesus candle, a silver coin, sage, incense, and a love stone as planchette for protection... and even with ALL THAT scary stuff still happened. I made Clara be the medium because I didn't want to be the one to get possessed (lol) so she did most of the talking.

The Phanchette moved quickly, and when it started going I swear it felt like my soul was leaving my body. It went to a bunch of numbers: 9, 7, 2, and then we closed the board and did a salt ring because it seemed like nothing was really getting through. But it was still so freaky that it was moving all by itself aa ahaaahhha ahhhhh

So later on we were just watching TV and Clara googled some Ouija board directions that very clearly stated that if the ouija board is counting down that means you have contacted a bad spirit and my body got very cold and I could feel my heart beat in my temples.

Well I couldn't sleep aT ALL that night and Clara's room was like 100+ degrees but I was too scared to sleep without a sheet covering me and a pillow on my head. Then at 2 AM I got a nose bleed just because I was so stressed. I was so sweaty and it was so gross and I had like 10 scary dreams that one of us got possesed and that the board spelled out "666".

Maybe I'll do Ouija again? I am just not messing around with whatever the hell we contacted at Clara's house. 

Monday High: Stuff im Jazzed about

So the guy I like, that I have liked since maybe the beginning of summer, used to text me a lot. And then he stopped. And then he went on a date with someone else. And I don't even know was our relationship was. I think I read into it a little too much. But I was feelin pretty bummed, because I haven't been doing much lately.

Isn't there a church quote that's like: Idle hands are the devil's playground or something? Whatever. I was focusing too much on a high school guy because that was becoming the only interesting thing in my life. Which is L A M E!

So I'm signing up for 2 film classes on Saturday that im super excited about! Well, maybe 1, but hopefully 2, because one is just Film and the other one is Directing Film. And I want to get back into Yoga again. I feel like Yoga is suuuuper socal, but I did it when I was in sixth grade and it was good with the whole pre-pubescent anger thing.

And track conditioning will start soon (I miss track so much, dang) and Grey's anatomy comes back on sept. 25 (yeeesss) I'm on a major medical drama kick right now. I'm on an avocado kick too. Why have I never realized how good avocados are until now?

Some other stuff: My photography class is really cool!

Yuh thats the stuff keeping me warm at night and this is the first time i'm being optimistic since i started school lmao bye

PS this fucking buzzfeed video changed my life i did three face masks in one night
PPS I'll try to post some summer pics later this week 

✞ Fake it till ya fuckin make it ✞

I'm agnostic but spiritual. I believe in tarot cards, fortune telling, ghosts...But I'm not religious. And I'm taking a theology class this summer at my catholic high school where being Catholic and being non-Catholic is the difference between and A and a B.

So I have decided to bullshit the entire class. I've B.S.'d and essay before, no problem. I've made up a story about self-discovery and gotten away with an A-. An entire class though...that's going to be difficult. I wish I didn't have to. But my teacher calls atiesths "the a-word" and said, "I'm not trying to single anyone out, but is there anyone who isn't Catholic?" No one raised their hand and she said "Okay, good."

It's especially difficult because this is a Catholic school sex ed class, where we're learning the sacredness of virginity and chastity. The true me wants to stand up and tell everyone that virginity is just a concept and that having sex doesn't change you as a person but the new fake "catholic" me just has to nod along.

Day one wasn't so bad. We had to fill out a personality servey that said ☺Please be honest!☺ At the top. I felt bad but when it asked me, Do you believe in God? I said "✔✔✔✔✔YES✔✔✔✔✔✔"

Day two and I'm holding hands with my friend Issy in class because our desks are close and why not? And out teacher looks at us and asks, "Are you two holding hands? What sort of...activity is this?" I couldn't say no because we were literally holding hands I wasn't going to straight up lie so I just tried to act like it was nothing, like everyone holds hands between desks when they get the chance.

But now she really thinks that I'm a hell bound lesbian, which I normally would have absolutely no problem with but I'm trying to pretend to be a holy catholic saint in order to get a grade. And my friend Issy feels bad now, because she is a lesbian and she doesn't want either of us to be in trouble. It shouldn't be this way. Mother fucker.

I don't like to lie but I need this grade. What would you do? Have a good wednesday.

Love Masisie xxoxoxoxox

ps all these pictures are from the cool christian emojis app

Goodbye Lemon Tree House

I have moved like 4 or 5 times- from Burbank to Hollywood, from California to Connecticut, from America to England...but I only remember moving from America to England and back the second time. It's time to move houses, we've lived in the same teeny home 4EVER. But, as soon as someone buys the house, it's getting knocked down, which is bad for me because I feel like I've known this house 4EVER and I don't want to see it go.

only pics on my computer rn 

Good reasons that the house should be destroyed:
- There are too many problems with it to fix
- All it's problems would stop being a financial burden for my parents
- This means we could travel more
- Me and my sister won't have to share a room- and we have been sharing since 2000
- Srsly this house is too small for a family of tall people
- I love starting over fresh, parting with the past, it's a good feeling.
- I made a deal w/ my mom that I would be totally okay with saying goodbye to the house if i could get a lock on my bedroom door which would be siiiiiick cuz i could sneak in lovers at midnight
- Change of scenery???
- I was bound to move some day
- The house was not built for two adults and two teenagers, it was built for one adult in the 1920's to have an office space and an easy commute to the film studios

Good reasons the house should not be destroyed
- I've known this house a long time
- I won't be able to take my kids here someday and tell them that's where I grew up
- I won't be able to walk over to my best friends house. My best friend moved to Pasadena and then went to boarding school and we rarely talk now. Being close to her old home is just depressing me.
- I'd have go know the house we lived in for 10+ years is being reduced to a pile of rubble. People have had their houses burned down and they've gotten on with their lives.
- My friends said the house was cute I'm not even friends with the ppl that said that anymore so uh
- I'll miss my old way of life (But good riddance eh?)
- THE LEMON TREE

Photo booth <33333333

All in all, I know that parting with the house will be for the best. It's going to be hard for me to say goodbye but maybe the cool parts of the new house will make me stop thinking about it. I still have my parents, my sister clara, and the cat, and we'll all be together.

writing this down has once again, helped a lot. I'll probably post some pictures of the house before it's time to leave.

Anyone have moving advice?

Love Maisie xxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoooxoxxx